When you lose someone, someone you love.. it's the hardest thing you could ever go trough and it will be a lot of pain. And no matter how much time have passed, it never really goes away. You may think you're getting better, but then you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of the person and it hits you all over again. All at once it's like a stab in the chest. You fall apart and you feel like you just want to crawl under a rock and never come out. You love this person with all of your heart, even tough you know you shouldn't. You want them, only them. Other people come along and give you chances to move on, but you don't want to. It upsets you that you might be moving on, because you promised you never would. And even if they broke all their promises, you want to keep yours. At the end of the day you're still thinking about the person who has left you completely broken. You don't want to miss them anymore. You don't want to love them anymore, but you know you always have and always will.